Well, it’s official. I want to travel the world…forever!
Mammoth Lakes, CA September 2014
The past few months have been anything but ordinary, but I suppose the life of an actor is destined for anything but ordinary. (Puke. Gross. Can’t believe I said that, but it is honestly so true). Every day is drastically different with new thoughts, new characters, new stories to be told, and new ways to come up with rent money (Almost that time of month. Sigh.)
I have recently had the pleasure of traveling for work, and it has been truly incredible. I feel a sense of happiness and clarity that I have not felt in many years. Within the past 10 months I have spent time in Paris, Puerto Rico, New York, and have taken mini-vacations to Mammoth, CA and Quincy & Chicago, IL to spend time with family and friends. One thing in common with going to all of these places: I felt completely invigorated. And alive. And passionate about my life. Whether I was exploring new cities, or visiting nostalgic places where I grew up – both delighted me so very much. I saw so many different people around the world, and was able to dive into other cultures head first with absolute enthusiasm and wonder.
Perhaps the most curious aspect was that I felt artistically stimulated like I have not in years. Seeing so much art, live theatre every night of the week, walking through some of the most gorgeous fashion districts in the entire world—everything I saw, everything I heard, the wonderful food and wine I tasted, the poetic music I heard—it was all artistic inspiration. I found myself writing everywhere I walked; every person I bumped into led to another idea. It was almost overwhelming at times, my mind continuously flowing, my hand could not write fast enough. As wonderful as it was, it was also very frustrating to look back at so many months of trying to write, staring at blank pages for days and days. I wanted so badly to tell stories, to create material to share with the world, but it would not come. (And it was not that I don’t have stories to tell – anyone who knows me well, knows my life is comprised of some of the craziest circumstances that could have ever happened in a 25 year old woman’s life.)
Paris, France July 2014
I think the reason these places felt so different to me is because I was approaching every experience with the wonder and curiosity of a child. I was so transfixed with what was happening, and discovering so many new things, I could not help but be completely grounded in each present moment. When comparing this way of living to my everyday life, I feel like that is what I have forgotten. I have forgotten to wake up every morning like a child on Christmas, so excited at the surprises that the day will bring. I believe it is very easy for us to fall into patterns and routines that feel comfortable to create a sense of stability in our lives. Jumping out of patterns of comfort is not easy, but I have found it necessary. As I have been saying a lot this year, nothing happens in the comfort zone. Don’t get me wrong, stability is a beautiful thing; it embodies strength, security and safety. And to most, these are valued aspects of life. But I thrive in adventure and spontaneous circumstances, and was depriving myself of these experiences. The experiences that would turn on my creative brain again, and help me to write freely once again.
San Juan, Puerto Rico December 2014
I happen to live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world. I am surrounded by creative minds daily, people who moved to live their dream. I wake up to this beauty every single day. I want to start acting like it and appreciating it. I have challenged myself to continue to push myself out of my comfort zone, and to dive into new experiences and culture while I am in Los Angeles. I am currently supporting as many friends as I can by attending their live music shows, comedy shows, plays, and I am truly touched and inspired again to live in the land of dreams (this is your chance! You better plug your show to me now so I will come!)
New York, NY April 2015
I am so grateful for the awareness that 2015 has brought: I live in a beautiful place, and I intend to soak up every second of it that I can. Join me, won’t you?